the rambleshack

i'm really upset today
i dont know if anybody will understand
regional tensions back home are rising
they may be going to war
i dont want to stay here and play the game anymore
i mean i love these guys and stuff but i have better things to be doing
i want to go home
i want to go back to my ship
its daryl's second death anniversary
that poor fucker died and all and now here i am sucking up resources and i cant do anything real i cant do shit
we just lost four female petty officers at home
morale is low at home
my hands are tied but i just cant reconcile emotions and priorites and everything
i feel as if i should be doing something else at all, like i dont even know why i'm here fucking around i mean its good training but does it really help me? i dont think i can benefit as much as a fresh american high school kid
if we're going to war back home i want in and i want to do whatever i can i know its small but i need to do something i know i can help and i know i'm good at what i do